Seven Treasures, Part 3: guest post by Jeff Kamchor

Read the series Introduction.

JEFF KAMCHOR is a father of  two (master of none), a singer in need of a metronome, the uxorious husband of his first true love, and a bullshit artist of some renown. He has type A+ blood, wears size 10 shoes, and is classified as Myers-Briggs Type ENTP. He currently traffics in privacy as a gilded prisoner of the Canadian reality-TV racket.


Here are my seven treasures (warning: some coarse language):

1. Bose QuietComfort 3 Acoustic Noise-Cancelling Headphones

Music speaks to me. It’s still my #1 mood-enhancing drug. I have a pair of excellent, ridiculously overpriced headphones that I wear when I’m out walking around the city. The feeling of being completely surrounded, enraptured, and transported by a great song is indescribable.

When we were kids our home was full of music, the basement cluttered with guitars, a bass, a full drum kit, a homemade organ built by a family friend, and all sorts of other noise makers. At the time, none of us had any particular skill on those instruments, but that never stopped us from making sounds … sometimes even musical ones.

There were 10 of us kids separated in age by almost 25 years. That meant the music at home ranged from reggae, folk, jazz, blues, R&B and show tunes from the older group to hip hop, punk, new wave, house, ambient and whatever from the younger. It was all good, and we soaked it in.

At the parties my parents threw there was always tons of food and, after the plates were cleared, someone would play the piano, everyone would sing, and music would fill the house. And somehow, our shortage of cash, the petty disputes, and the bullshit of the outside world would be forgotten.


I know it’s a cliché for a Canadian male to write a paean to a hockey stick, but here is mine.

My stick is a graphite weapon with a black blade and fire-engine red shaft decorated with bold black graphics and the words “CRxSSFIRE” (whatever that means). Of course most of the graphics are buried under an elaborate tape job. White tape spirals down the shaft, and sticky black tape covers the blade.

The stick is a thing of beauty … light, balanced, and with just the right combination of stiffness and flex. I hold it with a passion and an intensity that one would normally reserve for a lover, or an enemy, or a branch overhanging a deep chasm. That’s because it is all these things, a Freudian object if there ever was one.

Every Monday night, like religion, I take it to a gymnasium in Toronto’s Parkdale neighbourhood to play ball hockey. My teammates are on average 20 years younger than me, and to keep up with them at my age takes a combination of tenacity, canniness, desperation—and, of course, the right stick.

But lately now this combination betrays me with increasing frequency by not always being where it needs to be when those fleet young bastards are running me ragged.

I fire the ball laughably wide, and miss easy goal-mouth passes. But then, oh Lord, there are those special moments when the heel of the blade makes contact with the ball and sends it with a caress toward the tip. The base layer of tape increases the contact time by several precious milliseconds, the vertical stripes help to impart spin, and the ball, an orange blur, curves into the top corner of the net. Then I understand why I must play this game. This stick is a tool, a treasure, and a talisman against the dogs of age snarling at my heels: Run, old man, your time here will soon be done.

3. A Box Called Jeff

Up on a shelf, in a cupboard, in a bedroom, in the place where I live, is a box called Jeff. My name is written in black marker on a white label stuck to the outside. Inside the box is a collection of gushy love notes from my wife, many of which I discovered tucked into the brown bag lunches she used to prepare for me. There are also greeting cards, an expired passport, and some ancient newspaper clippings from the time our family emigrated from India.

This box also contains a set of notebooks written by my mother when she was dying.

She had cancer, starting in her breast and eventually metastasizing into the bones of her spine. The disease was relentless, devastating, and cruel, to her body for sure but also to her spirit. Her notebooks are the record of that time. I am terrified to read them. I’ve had them for almost 30 years and every few years I pick them up intending to, but I can never do it.

In my memory, my mother exists in a kind of foggy idealized world of happy family and lazy weekends drinking tea and talking nonsense. I know the reality was very different, especially as the cancer progressed and the powerful drugs set her sharp, beautiful mind adrift into the darkness. She always had an unshakable faith in God. Would that give her comfort in the fear and confusion of death? Was she angry? Did she regret sacrificing her opportunities by having so many children (remember, there were 10 of us)? And what about all those nasty fights with my father? Did she find peace in the end, or was her mind dragged still screaming and defiant under the suffocating waves of morphine that waited for her broken body to give in?

4. Sooji

The recipe is simple. Take one part cream of wheat, sauté in a bit of oil till golden brown, add two parts water, some sugar, and a bit of salt. That’s it. It’s called sooji, and to me it’s a small slice of heaven I embrace when everything else feels like hell.

I can imagine it right now … creamy, slightly sweet … a lovely toasted scent. It’s associated with one of my best childhood memories. I’m a small boy. Aged 6. Bombay. It’s evening. The next day there’s a school trip and my mother says she’s going to make something extra special for my lunch. Years later I don’t remember actually eating that sooji, but I recall walking to school carrying it in my lunchbox and thinking about how good it was going to taste. And what I remember most of all is that my mom made it especially for me. To this day it still carries her memory, me curled up in her lap, the scent of her skin, her tender embrace, big enough to make the whole big, scary world … go away.

5. The In-Progress List

In ancient days a paper notebook was an essential accessory for anxious teens, sensitive poets, and (ahem) self-important middle-aged scribblers of limited talent. These days, many of us have made the transition to electronic note-keeping. My file, which lives on my iPhone, is called “In Progress.” These notes may lack the sensual fibre and the lovely inky scent of paper, but this .doc, this cold arrangement of bits embedded in a heartless silicon matrix, is nonetheless a treasure to me.

Opening the file we find:

  • Quotes, both collected and invented:

What’s fashion except beauty sucking the cock of commerce.

In the murmur of the raindrops every story’s told.

In the future we will all be the lapdogs of benevolent machines.

  • Concepts for stories and inventions that will never be created:

Matches — as in things that go together as in relationships as in matches to burn things down and destroy the past and make new matches.

  • Cheesy song titles:

Cold Beer, Hot Women, Country Music

Ghosts of November

  •  Various bits of doggerel:

I wanna lie down and go to sleep. I’ve done too much; I’m in too deep. The road’s too long; the hill too steep. I gotta lie down and go to sleep.

It’s a big fat file, this In-Progress document, and it reminds me that despite how I currently make my living, I’m not just a creator of spreadsheets, a negotiator of contracts, a financier of field trips, and the fearless father obliged to investigate things that go bang in the night. These are all good things, wonderful things, and it’s my privilege to do them. But it reminds me that once there was another good thing. It reminds me that I dreamed, once upon a time, of being a writer, and that someday… just maybe … the seeds in this file will grow into something more.

6. “Perfect Circle”

I know that every memoir is a precious family document. Some of you reading this are working on memoirs of your own. You have my admiration and my respect: for your courage in mining your own darkness; and for your discipline in getting your ass into a chair and writing everything down. Courage and discipline may be faithful friends to you, but to me they are merely passing acquaintances.

I may never write a memoir, but I have composed a family history of sorts and it is a treasure to me. It’s a song called “Perfect Circle,” a simple little thing, just five chords written in 3/4 time. Here’s the first line:

Turning and turning the music was turning us older.

Old faces fade and then reappear in the new light.

It starts off about my wife and her grandmother, Emmi, who was forced to get married in a black dress because she was already pregnant.

Your grandmother wore black for things that we now take for granted.

And we cry not for things chosen, just those thrown away.

Shortly after I finished the song my father died suddenly of a heart attack, and as a form of therapy, I added several more verses.

I knew when I wrote this song, it would be for my father.

I never expected it to be his requiem.

My mother she loved him but sometimes he loved her badly.

She said, love those you love completely,

for loving’s never wrong.

She left the dance to her children, and then she was gone.

That’s when it occurred to me that the song was a sort of family history. I’ve taught the song to my children and to my brother Alan. He added a few words, had the lyrics framed, and gave them to me as a gift. That gift hangs on the wall in our home for everyone to see. I hope that the verses still to come will be written by my siblings and my children … and theirs. And that the song continues with the last verse forever unwritten.

Just like your mother before you and just like my father.

Let the band play, let the time carry us away.

7. Pulmicort

Imagine a world without all the delightful smells that help make life worth living … no fragrant flowers, no fresh baked bread, no subtle perfume at the nape of a lover’s neck, no heady scent of pussy.

Such loss.

The medical term is anosmia, and I’ve battled it for the better part of 10 years. It’s hard to describe the emptiness of a world without smells. Maybe try this.

Picture a silky floral scarf, or a gasoline rainbow streaked on the asphalt, or the thousand delicious shades of red lipstick, or the soft blue of the summer sky, or the red of an apple. Now imagine all this in black and white and shades of grey. This difference, this poverty of sensation is what it’s like to have no sense of smell.

The only thing that keep’s my anosmia at bay is a steroid medication called Pulmicort. Every morning I empty an ampoule of the drug into a small syringe and spray it into my nose as high as I can get it. It performs some steroidal magic way up in my sinuses and allows me to reclaim a scentscape that I know most people take for granted. My kitchen becomes a riot of welcome scents … coffee, toast, the shampoo in my daughter’s hair, even the distant whiff of the compost under the sink. Outside I note the car exhaust and passing garbage truck with delight. I stand under the crabapple tree in full blossom and breathe deep, and give thanks for the wonders of medicine.



  1. Mary says:

    You’re a very rich man, reaching into life’s grab-bag for things that enrich us all: the absolute necessity of music, the sweetness of a perfect goal, the bittersweet memory box, a mother’s pampering, an imaginative storehouse of words and images, a desire to pass on a unique family history, and a recognition of the inspired importance of the olfactory sense.

    Loved your words, “But then, oh Lord, there are those special moments when the heel of the blade makes contact with the ball and sends it with a caress toward the tip. The base layer of tape increases the contact time by several precious milliseconds, the vertical stripes help to impart spin, and the ball, an orange blur, curves into the top corner of the net.”

    Who doesn’t crave the glory of those precious moments?

  2. Allyson Latta says:

    From Adele Simmons:

    This is beautiful.

  3. amy says:

    Sounds like you don’t need a metronome for your writing pace. Love the lyrical and quotable intrigue.

  4. Sonya D'Cunha says:

    Jeff, you are a good man of many words. Not too many, just right. All warm, raw and real.

  5. Allyson Latta says:

    From Bill Johnston:

    Wow … a gifted man who savours life and crafts words with precision to capture what he loves. A treat to read.

  6. Allyson Latta says:

    From Monica Bennett:

    Amazing … thank you so much for sharing.

  7. Allyson Latta says:

    From Cecelia P.:

    Lovely verses … looking forward to reading more.

  8. Allyson Latta says:

    From Rudy DaCorte:

    Wow! Jeff, I really enjoyed that. Well written. Thanks for sharing.

  9. Allyson Latta says:

    From Susan Siddeley:

    The seven treasures are great, Allyson. Wonderful cue for writers! Thanks.

  10. Sandwitch says:

    Jeff, I’ve always loved cream of wheat. I’ll have to try the sooji recipe. Maybe if I feed it to my entire family, we’ll become less kooky and more thoughtful, like you 🙂

  11. Ted Ludzik says:

    You have a knack for writing and living.

  12. Susan says:

    What a beautiful set of treasures… I feel as if I’ve been given a special gift – a glimpse into the life of a very special person.

  13. Carmel Preyra says:

    So glad I didn’t dump this post with my junk mail. On this gloomy windy day, I am happy to read about your seven treasures. Such a rush of memories! Every occasion at home ended in a jam session where a treasured list of songs followed each other in a predictability that must have started in the old house in Bombay. All manner of sound producing instruments and appliances rattled in a symphonic disharmony of musical notes. Some voices, not exactly in tune belted out verses that were committed to memory a long time ago. Nothing hindered the raucous rendition of the old favourites. The party was never over until the repertoire had been exhausted and punctuated with Good Night Irene.

    I remember those sacred times when you would never miss your ball hockey games for anything. I remember the hockey stick that you lovingly taped in black and white spirals always ready and waiting for the next game. You invariably returned from your game with some epic storiy about a goal scored or a point lost, then pulled up your pant leg, to proudly display your war wounds of cuts and bruises. I recall you basking in the sympathetic pampering of your family.
    The shoji, so clear and comforting is the memory, that I am drawn to run to the kitchen and make myself some. I must say that you have perfected the recipe. I am grateful to you for sharing the shoji so willingly whenever I came to your house to unburden myself of my miserable angst.

    Your song Perfect Circle still swirls around in my head, and often I find myself singing it either alone or in the car with Romano.

    Thanks for sharing your seven treasures. They brought back so many great memories. I’m glad to finally know where mom’s diaries are. Cheers

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